Please Save Me (Siren Publishing Ménage Everlasting) Page 5

  Steve lowered his head to Selina’s shoulder, panting heavily as he waited for energy to return to his shaking limbs. When his breathing and his pounding heart began to slow, he lifted his head and looked over to Gary. His heart clenched and his breath hitched in his throat when he saw love shining from his other lover’s stare. He felt a chip in the wall he kept his heart encased in and lowered his eyelids when moisture pricked the back of his eyeballs. He didn’t know why the woman between him and Gary affected him so much, but he knew she was special. At the same time, she was also a danger to him, and he didn’t know what to do about it.

  Pulling his cock gently from her ass and being careful to take the condom with him, he stood up on wobbly legs and headed into the adjoining bathroom. He disposed of the sheath and cleaned up. Grabbing a washcloth, he wet it and soaped it up. He returned just as Gary eased from Selina’s cunt and walked toward the bathroom. She had her eyes closed as she lay on the bed in a supine sprawl. She looked so fucking gorgeous. He knew he was in danger of falling in love.

  He cleaned her up and patted her dry, and then he lifted her into his arms. Placing her in the middle of the bed, he drank in her beautiful face as she slept on. Selina snuggled into his chest, nuzzling her cheek against him, and he wondered if she would still feel the same when he told her why he was such a cold, hard bastard in the bedroom. She would probably be more understanding than any other female since she had obviously suffered at the hands of another human being, too, but he wasn’t sure he was ready to open up with her just yet.

  Gary knew his little secret, and Steve knew he would never betray him by telling anyone else. In fact, if it hadn’t been for Gary, Steve wondered if he would ever have been able to function as a “normal,” healthy male. The only times he had let Gary top him happened because he’d had too much to drink and his inhibitions had been lowered. He didn’t blame Gary for either of those interludes, because both times his lover had asked him over and over again if he was sure that was what he wanted to do, and it had been at that time. But he would never allow Gary to discuss those times with him or anyone else. To him they had been aberrations in his personality.

  Not that Gary’s lovemaking had been anything but tender and loving, but he just couldn’t deal with the mental ramifications of what he had done. Yet he had no problem making love to Gary. God, he was so screwed up. When Selina found out about him he was scared she would run screaming from the house, leaving Gary’s heart in pieces.

  No, he couldn’t chance falling in love with her. He was going to have to be very vigilant around her and make sure he was in control at all times. There was no way in hell he was letting her take his heart only to smash it beneath her feet on her way out the door. “She is so perfect for us. Selina is exactly what we have been looking for.” Gary got in the other side and turned his head to look at Steve.

  “Don’t get your hopes up. She may not want to stay when she finds out about me.”

  “You don’t honestly believe that, do you? Haven’t you seen the way she watches you when you’re not looking?”

  “That doesn’t mean anything. Besides, she looks at you the same way,” Steve replied quietly.

  “Yeah?” A goofy grin spread across his face.

  “Look, you can’t go falling for her too hard or fast, man. She may not want to stick around for long.”

  “Steve, you have to trust her. You can’t go around your whole life with your heart closed off, expecting everyone to reject you. Selina is nothing like Sally was, and to be honest, I don’t know why you told her in the first place. It wasn’t as if you loved her, and neither did I. She was just a fuck, and her heart wasn’t involved either.”

  “It was a test. I had to find out how a female would react when she knew the truth about me.”

  “Don’t go measuring Selina against Sally. They’re totally different people. God, Sally was such a needy, greedy bitch. Selina’s different,” Gary stated vehemently and held up his hand when he went to interrupt. “She is quiet, dependable, and loving, Steve, and if you don’t see that then just maybe we aren’t deserving of her. If you don’t think you can open up to her, to both of us, then maybe we shouldn’t have started this in the first place.”

  Steve rolled away from Gary and sighed as tumultuous emotions raced through his heart and head. He wanted Selina more than he had ever wanted anyone in his life, besides Gary. Was he going to be able to trust her and let her into his heart? In his entire life, he had only ever been able to rely on two people. Himself and Gary. Would he be doing Gary a disservice if he didn’t learn to trust and let her into his life as well?

  He already knew the answer to that question before it had finished forming in his mind. Yes, he would be.

  Shit. He should have learned to be happy with just Gary by his side, but he, too, had yearned to have a female in their relationship. They needed her more than she needed them, and if he was honest with himself, he was probably in more need of her soft, gentle, loving touch than his lover was.

  He rolled to his back and stared at the ceiling, his eyes wide and no hint of sleep imminent. It was going to be a long night.

  Chapter Six

  Selina hadn’t meant to eavesdrop on their conversation earlier in the night, but since she was between waking and sleeping, she had heard everything Gary and Steven had said. She had drifted off to sleep when Steve had rolled away from her, and even though she felt right being between the two men, she wasn’t going to be content until she was able to connect with Steve on a more emotional level. Whatever he feared to tell her was ripping him apart inside.

  She had yearned to turn over and take him into her arms and whisper her love for him.

  Slowly but irrevocably, without her even realizing it, she had been falling for her two bosses from the first day she had asked for a job. Steve with his pain-filled eyes, seriousness, and dominant personality had wormed his way beneath her skin and into her heart. She wanted to tell him that no matter what he’d done or had had done to him, it would never change the way she felt for him or Gary.

  Gary had such a quick-witted humor and light outlook on life, which hid a vulnerable perfectionist beneath that outer façade. How could I not have known how deeply I felt for them? Now that she had experienced their touch, she wanted more and more. She didn’t know if she could walk away if she had to.

  When they had been making love with her earlier in the evening, she had felt so connected with the two men, her heart had been full of love and happiness, and she had struggled to contain it. Several times she’d had to bite her tongue to prevent herself from blurting out those three words. Never in her life had she felt so peaceful, nor had she felt she could make love with two men, to have their bodies in hers as they wrapped her in loving arms and pleasured her body. She had felt connected to them on a level so deep, she had felt them touch her soul. Now, as Steve got out of bed and tiptoed from the room, she vowed to help him and love him with everything she had.

  The bedroom door closed quietly behind him, and Selina rose, slipped Steve’s shirt on, and followed him. She found him in the kitchen leaning against the counter, his head hanging down below his shoulders, the muscles beneath his naked back taut with tension. He lifted his head and looked at her in the window over the kitchen sink, and she realized she must have made a noise to alert him to her presence. Turning to face her, he perused her shirt-clad form from toes to head and back again.

  “What’s wrong, sugar? Can’t you sleep?”

  “I woke up thirsty and wanted a drink,” she answered half-truthfully.

  “I’ll get it, honey, sit down,” Steve said and got her some water. He brought it to the table and took the seat next to her as she studied him intently. “What?”

  “I don’t know. Why don’t you tell me?” she asked gently, placing her hand over his where he rested it on the tabletop.

  “I don’t know what you’re talking about, Selina,” he answered coolly.

  The tone in his voice cut into he
r heart. She schooled her features to hide her disappointment, but she couldn’t really expect him to trust her when she had been reticent herself. She hadn’t told them about her ex until the truth came out with the police.

  Thinking about Joe brought back all his snide remarks about her, and she said, “I don’t know why you and Gary want me in a relationship with the both of you. I don’t see that I have much to offer. I’m not beautiful with my average looks. My hair is a drab brown, my eyes are mismatched, and my body is only passable. I’ve only ever had one lover, and that was years ago, before I met Joe. Even he said I was nothing to look at and that I was frigid. So why do you want me to become involved with you and Gary?”

  “God, Selina. How can you not know how gorgeous you are? Your hair and eyes are stunning, sugar. I love the way your long, glossy hair tumbles down your back in waves, and you have such beautiful, expressive eyes. They change to a deep, misty green and misty green and deep brown when you’re aroused, and I could just drown in them. And your body, my God, you are such a sexy little thing. You have curves in all the right places and draw male eyes whenever you walk into a room. As to being frigid, how can you even believe that after what we shared with you tonight?

  “You have more love and compassion in your little finger than most women have in their whole bodies. Gary’s already in love with you, honey.”

  Selina wiped away the tears which had leaked from her eyes at his sentiments and felt herself fall more in love with the broken man in front of her. She could see sadness and shadows lurking in the depths of his eyes and wanted to get hold of whoever had hurt him and tear them apart.

  “What about you? What do you feel?” she asked with a sniff.

  Steve reached over and pulled her into his arms. As he held her tight against his chest, she wrapped her arms around his neck and rested her head on his shoulder.

  “I don’t know what love is, Selina. I care for Gary more than I have ever cared for another human being. Whether that is love or not, I honestly don’t know. I suppose it is, but I’ve had things done to me, sugar, that have left me less than half a man, and I don’t know if I’ll ever be whole again. I care for you and want you to stay in this relationship with us, but if you don’t think you can handle it, then you had better walk away from it quickly. The longer you stay, the harder it will be for Gary if you decide to leave.”

  “I’m worried that I’m putting you and Gary in the line of fire. The last thing I want is for either of you to get hurt. Do you think we should have started this now? I couldn’t live with my conscience if anything happened to you or Gary. I love you, Steve. I love you both so much, I can’t bear the thought of you getting hurt,” she finished on a sob.

  “Aww, don’t cry, honey. Everything will work out, you’ll see. And if you love us, then yes, this was a good time to start our relationship. We’ll keep you safe, Selina. One of us will be by your side at all times.

  “You have given me the greatest gift anyone could give, and I will try not to hurt you. I can’t promise I won’t, because deep down I’m a cold, hard bastard, but I will do my best to cherish your heart and not cause you any emotional pain,” Steve said, and she could hear the rasp in his voice as he tried to contain his emotions.

  She sighed and snuggled into him and closed her eyes contentedly. He hadn’t fully opened up to her yet, but he had taken a step in the right direction. Hopefully as their relationship developed he would come to trust her and would talk about what he thought had made him less than a man. As far as she was concerned, that was so far from the truth it was laughable.

  * * * *

  Gary listened and watched the two people he loved most in the world and felt his heart fill with love for them. Watching Steve with Selina as he cuddled her and spoke to her quietly from his heart made him realize that he had done the right thing by them and himself. He knew deep down Steve was a fun-loving guy and could be again if he would only let go of the past. His lover had always kept part of himself closed off from him, and even though he knew Steve loved him, he also knew he would never hear those words from his lips until Steve could purge the bitterness still locked up tight inside. As he got to know Selina over the last month, he realized that she was the only woman who could break through the hard-edged façade his lover portrayed and set him free. The emotion in Steve’s eyes was visible to Gary as he gazed down at Selina with undisguised tenderness. He knew in that moment that everything was going to work out all right.

  Quietly Gary crept back down the hall and up the stairs to the bedroom and slipped back into bed. Now, all they had to do was keep her safe and well. He planned to talk to Steve in the morning about hiring a bodyguard for her just in case, and maybe a private detective would be able to find Joe before he found her and took her from them. He had a gut feeling that Joe was pure evil, and that caused dread to settle into his gut. They were going to have to fight to keep their woman safe, and he vowed that he would give his life.

  * * * *

  Steve glanced down at Selina when her breathing evened out and deepened. She felt so right in his arms, and he wanted to keep holding her even though he knew she would be more comfortable in bed. He picked up the glass of water, still untouched on the dining table, and took a sip. She couldn’t have been thirsty at all, and he wondered if he had disturbed her sleep when he had left the bed. Was she so attuned to him already that she felt when he was anxious and unsettled? He thought about how he would feel if she decided that she couldn’t stay with him and Gary or if her ex got to her and took her from them, and he felt pain stab into his heart.

  Fuck. What am I doing? First Gary wormed his way into his heart, and now a little slip of a woman had done the same thing. He didn’t know if what he felt for her was love, but the thought of her not being by his side ripped him to shreds. He shouldn’t be doing this. He knew he wasn’t worthy of anyone’s love. His stepfather taught him that. He yearned so badly to let go of the pain and bitterness inside, but Steve had been locked up so tight for so long he didn’t know how to. The only thing he did know was that he would protect Selina with his last breath if necessary.

  Moving carefully, so he didn’t wake her, Steve rose to his feet with Selina cradled against his chest. Using his elbow, he flicked the light switch off and walked up the stairs toward the bedroom. He gently laid her down on the bed in the middle and watched as she sighed and moved up closer to Gary. Then Steve climbed in beside her. She settled close to Gary with her head on his lover’s shoulder and shifted until one of her arms was over his hips and thighs.

  Steve tried to stay on his side of the bed, giving them room to move, but he found himself shifting closer until his front was aligned with her back. He sighed contentedly and wrapped an arm around her waist. When his body was touching hers from chest to shins, he closed his eyes and slept.

  * * * *

  He watched as the lights in the house went off and wondered if she was fucking them. The rage built up inside him until he felt ready to explode. How could she let them touch her when he hadn’t had the chance? That fucking slut was supposed to be his. How dare she brush him off and then put out a restraining order on him. He would make sure she paid for all the trouble she had caused him. Because of her he had been fired from his job and lost most of his friends. She was to blame for everything that had happened to him, and he would make sure she suffered before he was finished with her. He was going to fuck her until she couldn’t walk, and then he would kill her.

  He could just imagine her screaming and begging him to fuck her while he carved her up. He loved the scent of blood and sex mixed together. He groaned with sexual frustration as his hard dick pulsed in his pants. Breathing heavily, he undid the button and zipper on his jeans and released his cock from his briefs. Grasping the head, he squeezed, groaning as pre-cum bubbled to the surface. Moving his hand farther down his hard shaft and sliding his fist up and down, he imagined what he would do to Selina when he got her in his clutches.

  He would tie h
er down spread eagle, and he would shove his cock so far up her cunt, she would feel him in her throat. He imagined his knife sliding into and through her flesh, like hot metal through butter, and threw his head back against the headrest on his car seat. He imagined the scent of blood and musky sex permeated the air, and his balls drew up tight to his body. He moaned as he imagined her wet pussy clasping around him in a tight grip and gasped with excitement when he thought about how it would feel to shove his cock up her ass. His imagination had her there beneath him, and he saw her face contort with painful ecstasy. Wrapping a hand around her throat as his hips pumped furiously, forcing her body to accept his cock, and his other hand worked the knife, he laughed a deep guttural sound then threw his head back and howled as he climaxed. Spurt after spurt of semen erupted from his cock, and he shook with the brutal pleasure of his release.

  She was the one woman meant to be by his side, and he wasn’t going to let anyone take her away from him. He would kill them, too, if he had to.

  Chapter Seven

  “Ooh,” Selina moaned as hands brushed against her pussy and a hot mouth closed around a nipple and sucked. A finger dipped into her cunt and then slid up to her clit and began to massage, spreading waves of pleasure throughout her womb and loins. Feeling herself rising to the surface of consciousness, she stubbornly clung to the state between sleep and waking as her dream swept her away on a tantalizing ocean of desire.

  Jolting with pleasure as a tongue and fingers came into play on her pussy, she arched her hips up to get more of the delicious sensations and purred when the mouth at her breast withdrew to be placed over her mouth. Opening up to the questing tongue, she moaned as she rubbed hers against the one invading her mouth. The fingers and lips on her pussy lifted away, and a deep voice penetrated her dreamlike state.